How my all time devil nightmares turned into my inspiration

My life has never been less than a nightmare.
No love, no life, no friends, just fake ones. I am 30 now, married, a mom to two kids but still pissed off, still a nightmare.
But inspite of all that, i made a lot of changes in my life, the positive ones. And i personally feel those problems as my only power behind my conversion from a really dumb girl to no doubt, such a Wonder Woman. 

With all the problems, i learnt, we can't be strong, if we don't fight and we won't fight until we feel the worth and we feel the worth, only when we don't have it.

Well starting from my childhood, i had many friends. But never felt myself as a part of it, was amongst the most hepp group of our school times, but still a leftover. I was from not so rich family. So had confined myself a lot, infact, to me only. I never shared me, (as in my thoughts) with any one.
My so called stupid friends grew higher, had higher studies coz of materialistic luxuries, that they always had. But not me. Not everybody is that fortunate.

Crying was my best timepass, my best companion. But those tears were my only support, my only inspiration. I couldn't understand how GOD could be so cruel to me. He made me just to keep shedding tears.

Well it's okay now atleast, now i know how to express myself really, very well, in a very civilized matter and that also, to me only.

This is for the very first time, me posting my realities on social media. I don't know where from i overcame that fear of sharing myself, my thoughts, my identity, my reality.

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